Soul-Healing
Look at this beautiful 'ugly old toad'. How can anything in nature be ugly! Nature as I've said is true and perfect, it doesn't live evilly. It doesn't live in rebellion against God and Mary and Jesus, against the truth. It can't. Not like us.
We are the ugly ones. We are the monsters. We are the nature-destroyers. And we only are that way because we're destroying ourselves. As we rebel against all that is good, so we're doing that within ourselves. We are told we're children of God, God's most wonderful creation, yet do we live that? We see nature is there for our own amusement, to do as we please with; if it doesn't suit us, chop it down; if we need a companion, get a pet; if we need to make money, use and abuse it for all its worth. Yet we only do these things because we've gone off the rails by living untrue to ourselves.
To heal ourselves requires as I said, new revelation, and that's what Divine Love Spirituality is all about: helping to reveal truth about our underlying problem - our evilness; and how to then go about healing ourselves of it by uncovering the truth of ourselves. But it's not all that easy.
Because we're living false, untrue lives of fantasy, we have to wake up to this, that's the beginning. We have to face it and accept that we are, but this is hard to do, to accept the truth of ones evilness, when all one is doing is to avoid and keep suppressed such truth.
So we have to wake up to ourselves, take a good look at how we really are, not getting all caught up in the show of being loving we put on. But again this is dam hard to do because we've been heavily conditioned from early childhood to be untrue. But unless we do face it, we'll never heal ourselves. We'll die possibly believing we had a good life on Earth, move into the mind mansion worlds there enjoying all the spirit love and beauty; free then to carry on 'bettering' ourselves as we 'transcend' and 'grow in the light and gain knowledge', as we become - 'enlightened', but it's all still truth avoidance.
And we can long for and even receive Divine Love, and we can then believe we're on our way to advancing our soul in truth; we might even say, and even feel, we're ascending in truth, that all our evilness is simply fading away, being washed away by all that Divine Love; flowing out of us in murky steams of yuk, but gone for good because now being at-one with God - my Heavenly Father... just as Jesus says he is. But still you're going to be full of unexpressed bad feelings from your early childhood, they are not going to leave your soul because of what you might believe with your mind. They can't leave, and there's very good reason why not.
We are the ugly ones. We are the monsters. We are the nature-destroyers. And we only are that way because we're destroying ourselves. As we rebel against all that is good, so we're doing that within ourselves. We are told we're children of God, God's most wonderful creation, yet do we live that? We see nature is there for our own amusement, to do as we please with; if it doesn't suit us, chop it down; if we need a companion, get a pet; if we need to make money, use and abuse it for all its worth. Yet we only do these things because we've gone off the rails by living untrue to ourselves.
To heal ourselves requires as I said, new revelation, and that's what Divine Love Spirituality is all about: helping to reveal truth about our underlying problem - our evilness; and how to then go about healing ourselves of it by uncovering the truth of ourselves. But it's not all that easy.
Because we're living false, untrue lives of fantasy, we have to wake up to this, that's the beginning. We have to face it and accept that we are, but this is hard to do, to accept the truth of ones evilness, when all one is doing is to avoid and keep suppressed such truth.
So we have to wake up to ourselves, take a good look at how we really are, not getting all caught up in the show of being loving we put on. But again this is dam hard to do because we've been heavily conditioned from early childhood to be untrue. But unless we do face it, we'll never heal ourselves. We'll die possibly believing we had a good life on Earth, move into the mind mansion worlds there enjoying all the spirit love and beauty; free then to carry on 'bettering' ourselves as we 'transcend' and 'grow in the light and gain knowledge', as we become - 'enlightened', but it's all still truth avoidance.
And we can long for and even receive Divine Love, and we can then believe we're on our way to advancing our soul in truth; we might even say, and even feel, we're ascending in truth, that all our evilness is simply fading away, being washed away by all that Divine Love; flowing out of us in murky steams of yuk, but gone for good because now being at-one with God - my Heavenly Father... just as Jesus says he is. But still you're going to be full of unexpressed bad feelings from your early childhood, they are not going to leave your soul because of what you might believe with your mind. They can't leave, and there's very good reason why not.
Our bad feelings
Our bad feelings we treat like this big turd here. That's us, those little fungi growing out of all the yuk bad feelings we've got repressed inside us. But unlike these fungi who draw sustenance from the lump of lovely poo, our repressed bad feelings make us sick.
But first, why our bad feelings can't somehow magically leave us, and why when we're young and we have them seemingly to get over them quickly moving onto something else, even though they are all still hidden within us and we haven't 'got over them', is because we need them to help us uncover the truth of our negative state - when we're ready to do so.
You see it goes like this. Right from the first moment of our incarnation at conception on higher levels we're already denying ourselves as a condition of being brought into evil. So we're already feeling bad, even though we are not conscious of such feelings. And then as we grow and develop, we still feel bad, and our parenting causes us to deny them. Our parenting also causes us to feel more bad feelings because our relationship with our parents is not true, it's bad, even if we think it was very loving, because our parents are not perfect and true so can't have loved us truly as we needed to be loved.
So all the way along right through our early forming years we deny copious amounts of bad feelings - untold numbers of them. And they all go into our soul stored as light, there to wait until we're ready to bring them all out. And one day, that's what we have to do - express all our repressed childhood feelings, which then gives rise to the term: Childhood Repression.
But first, why our bad feelings can't somehow magically leave us, and why when we're young and we have them seemingly to get over them quickly moving onto something else, even though they are all still hidden within us and we haven't 'got over them', is because we need them to help us uncover the truth of our negative state - when we're ready to do so.
You see it goes like this. Right from the first moment of our incarnation at conception on higher levels we're already denying ourselves as a condition of being brought into evil. So we're already feeling bad, even though we are not conscious of such feelings. And then as we grow and develop, we still feel bad, and our parenting causes us to deny them. Our parenting also causes us to feel more bad feelings because our relationship with our parents is not true, it's bad, even if we think it was very loving, because our parents are not perfect and true so can't have loved us truly as we needed to be loved.
So all the way along right through our early forming years we deny copious amounts of bad feelings - untold numbers of them. And they all go into our soul stored as light, there to wait until we're ready to bring them all out. And one day, that's what we have to do - express all our repressed childhood feelings, which then gives rise to the term: Childhood Repression.
Accepting our bad feelings
The heart of our problem lies in our denying many of our bad feelings, all as a consequence of how we were parented. And as some people were loved more than others, so one could say some people have denied more of themselves, were forced to go more against themselves, denying their will. Our soul-healing is really our will-healing.
So to heal ourselves, all we have to do, and it's all so very simple, and it's obvious staring us right in the face, is, ACCEPT ALL OUR FEELINGS. And if we can manage to do this, then by the time we have we'll be living true. And not only that, we'll have healed ourselves of all our evilness, we'll have grown in truth, even if we don't embrace longing for the Divine Love. We will have become perfect in our natural love, just like the creatures. And if we have embraced the Divine Love, we'll become of a Celestial level of truth and love.
It's true that we've fallen from grace. And fallen a long way. So it's mad to think we're superior to nature when we're the ones who is evil and nature is the one who is true.
So to do our Soul-Healing consists of these steps, all of which are ongoing until it's done.
Doing your Soul-Healing with the Divine Love, is really doing your 'Feeling-Healing'.
So to heal ourselves, all we have to do, and it's all so very simple, and it's obvious staring us right in the face, is, ACCEPT ALL OUR FEELINGS. And if we can manage to do this, then by the time we have we'll be living true. And not only that, we'll have healed ourselves of all our evilness, we'll have grown in truth, even if we don't embrace longing for the Divine Love. We will have become perfect in our natural love, just like the creatures. And if we have embraced the Divine Love, we'll become of a Celestial level of truth and love.
It's true that we've fallen from grace. And fallen a long way. So it's mad to think we're superior to nature when we're the ones who is evil and nature is the one who is true.
So to do our Soul-Healing consists of these steps, all of which are ongoing until it's done.
- Admit you are feeling bad.
- Accept your bad feelings.
- Honour fully your bad feelings by expressing them, speaking about them to someone who is willing to hear you talk about them. Long for the truth of them. Long for the truth of why you feel bad - what deep within you is causing your bad feelings.
- And remember, Bad feelings are Good!, not bad. They are not to be despised. And as hard as it to accept them, they are still you, and a very real part of you. And if you persist in denying them and not allowing yourself to fully live them, then you're only going to keep yourself in your evilness making things harder for yourself.
- All sickness and suffering, all bad things that happen to you, all your problems, all your addictions - your whole feeling-denying and untrue life, is all caused by your denial of bad feelings.
- Every problem in the world is brought about because everyone has been brought up to deny feelings, and in particular, most of their bad ones.
Doing your Soul-Healing with the Divine Love, is really doing your 'Feeling-Healing'.
Feeling-Healing
Accepting, expressing and seeking the truth of your feelings, and mostly your bad feelings, is setting about your doing your Feeling-Healing. You can do this irrespective of your spiritual inclinations, you don't have to be longing for the Divine Love. And apparently for those people who take this route new sectors will be made available in the forthcoming new age in the mind mansion worlds, separate to the mind spirits who want to keep living merrily on their evil way.
And those people who want to do their Feel-Healing with also the inclusion of the Divine Love, setting out to live true to oneself as one strives to be truly at-one with God, they will be endeavouring to heal their whole soul - hence, Soul-Healing. They will be striving not only to perfect their natural love, but to also transform their soul from the image of God into God's very essence. They will be setting out to become divine, and when healed, to know they have attained the level of the Celestial spheres.
As I said earlier, most of Divine Love Spirituality is involved in revealing what it is we need to know about our Soul - and Feeling-Healing. And how to go about it. What difficulties one might face and how to over come them. All of which has come to light through the doing of my and Marion's healing. We are currently still doing it. And as I feel I have gained a little understanding about it all, I want to start to 'put it out there'.
And those people who want to do their Feel-Healing with also the inclusion of the Divine Love, setting out to live true to oneself as one strives to be truly at-one with God, they will be endeavouring to heal their whole soul - hence, Soul-Healing. They will be striving not only to perfect their natural love, but to also transform their soul from the image of God into God's very essence. They will be setting out to become divine, and when healed, to know they have attained the level of the Celestial spheres.
As I said earlier, most of Divine Love Spirituality is involved in revealing what it is we need to know about our Soul - and Feeling-Healing. And how to go about it. What difficulties one might face and how to over come them. All of which has come to light through the doing of my and Marion's healing. We are currently still doing it. And as I feel I have gained a little understanding about it all, I want to start to 'put it out there'.
Divine Love and bad feelings
It's our intent that determines whether or not we receive Divine Love from God into our soul. Not our feeling or emotional state. So long as our desire is true, in that it's a sincere longing to God to be loved by God, to receive God's love in ones soul, then we'll receive the Divine Love.
Some people worry about the possibility of their feeling bad feelings and emotions interfering with their ability to receive the Divine Love. The emotions and feelings themselves won't, however it might be harder to long sincerely and being fully focused on what you're doing when you feel distracted by your feelings. Of course when you feel good then it's much easier to reach out to God asking Them for Their Divine Love. When you feel bad, you might also want to go to God longing for support, love and help; or, you might feel that's the last thing you want to do.
It doesn't really matter as the Divine Love will come into your soul upon your true longing for it. It's what then happens that is of the most concern. And this is where a strong desire to grow in truth comes in.
If you don't want to heal yourself of your evilness then the Divine Love will wait, 'dormant' so to speak, within your soul until you do. You won't feel its subtle effects within you because your mind will be still too much in control. And I understand it's even possible to receive some Divine Love and yet still further your negative self-denying state, rejecting and rebelling even further against God and so the Divine Love you have within you.
The more of your bad feelings you can acknowledge and express whilst seeking the truth of what deep inside you is causing you to feel bad, the more the Divine Love will support your truth aspirations. However, as the whole aim is to do our healing first so the Divine Love then has perfect natural love to transform, don't expect to feel any real positive love from the Divine Love in your soul because your soul will be intent on releasing all your repressed early childhood feelings so you can uncover the truth of them. I have long since given up expecting to feel loved by God and happy, because of any Divine Love I may have within my soul, UNTIL I have completely finished my healing. And in fact, I don't want the Divine Love to make me feel loved at the expense of my feeling bad, because then I'd only be still denying such bad feelings, this time using the Divine Love to help me. I want to feel bad so I can bring all my yuk out. And I want to receive as much Divine Love as I can, but my focus remains on acknowledging and accepting my bad feelings and seeking the truth of them, content in the knowledge that also my relationship with my Heavenly Parents is growing as I move along in my healing.
There is a great temptation to use the Divine Love, along with anything that might make you feel better, to help you keep denying bad feelings. And really by rights, we shouldn't have had the Divine Love made available to us until all of humanity is healed and perfect in its natural love. However God had other things in mind by sending Mary and Jesus to us, and so we have this window of three thousand years (Mary and Jesus' age, and the next age of one thousand years) to long for the Divine Love, whilst we're evil, just to complicate things more than they already are.
So once again, the Divine Love is NOT the way or thing to be used to get you out of your evilness, that would be looking to it to help you feel good like we do so many drugs. And as one can't get addicted to the Divine Love, if you are not growing in truth actively through the doing of your healing, then you can long and long and believe you are still receiving the Love, but it will have ceased to come into you because your soul will have had its 'quota'. Your soul will then be waiting for more 'space' to be made available in it as you perfect your natural love, upon which it can transform into God's essence.
So overall one could say, yes ones bad feelings and emotions will get in the way of receiving the Divine Love, however they themselves are not the problem. Ones whole negative state, refusing to grow in truth, is what's standing in the way of you and your Heavenly Mother and Father's relationship. If you refuse to grow in truth, then you are still refusing yourself, nature and God, so also God's Divine Love - you are living in rebellion against all that is good. But as I said and making things very confusing, even within all this rebellion, we can still long for and receive some Divine Love.
And concerning the dealing with your bad feelings and trying to rid yourself of them, unless you are working with them to help you uncover the truth of your evilness, you only denying them still. And using your mind to 'work through them' is not going to get you anywhere, only increase your self-delusion that you're all right and heading in the right direction.
Some people worry about the possibility of their feeling bad feelings and emotions interfering with their ability to receive the Divine Love. The emotions and feelings themselves won't, however it might be harder to long sincerely and being fully focused on what you're doing when you feel distracted by your feelings. Of course when you feel good then it's much easier to reach out to God asking Them for Their Divine Love. When you feel bad, you might also want to go to God longing for support, love and help; or, you might feel that's the last thing you want to do.
It doesn't really matter as the Divine Love will come into your soul upon your true longing for it. It's what then happens that is of the most concern. And this is where a strong desire to grow in truth comes in.
If you don't want to heal yourself of your evilness then the Divine Love will wait, 'dormant' so to speak, within your soul until you do. You won't feel its subtle effects within you because your mind will be still too much in control. And I understand it's even possible to receive some Divine Love and yet still further your negative self-denying state, rejecting and rebelling even further against God and so the Divine Love you have within you.
The more of your bad feelings you can acknowledge and express whilst seeking the truth of what deep inside you is causing you to feel bad, the more the Divine Love will support your truth aspirations. However, as the whole aim is to do our healing first so the Divine Love then has perfect natural love to transform, don't expect to feel any real positive love from the Divine Love in your soul because your soul will be intent on releasing all your repressed early childhood feelings so you can uncover the truth of them. I have long since given up expecting to feel loved by God and happy, because of any Divine Love I may have within my soul, UNTIL I have completely finished my healing. And in fact, I don't want the Divine Love to make me feel loved at the expense of my feeling bad, because then I'd only be still denying such bad feelings, this time using the Divine Love to help me. I want to feel bad so I can bring all my yuk out. And I want to receive as much Divine Love as I can, but my focus remains on acknowledging and accepting my bad feelings and seeking the truth of them, content in the knowledge that also my relationship with my Heavenly Parents is growing as I move along in my healing.
There is a great temptation to use the Divine Love, along with anything that might make you feel better, to help you keep denying bad feelings. And really by rights, we shouldn't have had the Divine Love made available to us until all of humanity is healed and perfect in its natural love. However God had other things in mind by sending Mary and Jesus to us, and so we have this window of three thousand years (Mary and Jesus' age, and the next age of one thousand years) to long for the Divine Love, whilst we're evil, just to complicate things more than they already are.
So once again, the Divine Love is NOT the way or thing to be used to get you out of your evilness, that would be looking to it to help you feel good like we do so many drugs. And as one can't get addicted to the Divine Love, if you are not growing in truth actively through the doing of your healing, then you can long and long and believe you are still receiving the Love, but it will have ceased to come into you because your soul will have had its 'quota'. Your soul will then be waiting for more 'space' to be made available in it as you perfect your natural love, upon which it can transform into God's essence.
So overall one could say, yes ones bad feelings and emotions will get in the way of receiving the Divine Love, however they themselves are not the problem. Ones whole negative state, refusing to grow in truth, is what's standing in the way of you and your Heavenly Mother and Father's relationship. If you refuse to grow in truth, then you are still refusing yourself, nature and God, so also God's Divine Love - you are living in rebellion against all that is good. But as I said and making things very confusing, even within all this rebellion, we can still long for and receive some Divine Love.
And concerning the dealing with your bad feelings and trying to rid yourself of them, unless you are working with them to help you uncover the truth of your evilness, you only denying them still. And using your mind to 'work through them' is not going to get you anywhere, only increase your self-delusion that you're all right and heading in the right direction.
True to your true, true self.
Imagine that you’re pretending to be something in life which really you feel is not the true you, you’re putting it on, you know that, you’re aware of it, but feel for various reasons you can’t stop it, you have to keep up the appearance and pretence of being someone you’re not really.
For example. Imagine you’re gay (or if you are gay...), you know it, but you can’t come out, you can’t tell and be true to it in the world because of how you think it will affect people in your family. You don’t want to hurt your mother, go against your parents, shame and embarrass them, make them angry with you, whatever it is. You don’t want to hurt them, so you have to keep it - the real you - secret from them. Or you are an actress, and you can’t come out because it will ruin your chances of getting further work. You have to pretend you are a certain way, to make a certain impression, put on a certain act, all so you can get what you want. But you’re a fraud, you know it, and live with it, wishing you could just be as you want to be in your life, free to do as you please, free to be yourself - what you feel is the true and real you.
And then one day, finally, for whatever reasons, you do come out, you tell the whole world, and dam it, you’re going to be as you are, and if you’re rejected by everyone, so be it, but you can’t keep dishonouring yourself. And oh the relief, you are finally able to live without having to keep a secret, without having a hidden agenda, keeping an alternative contrived other live going, all so you can be accepted in the world. Finally you are free to be your true self. And that’s great, but what really is this true self?
And what it is, is allowing yourself to be true to your evilness, the real and true you that you feel you are, but all STILL within a false, evil, love-denying, untrue state of mind. So really it’s only the first step of coming out. You are evil and forced yourself to live yet another false exterior, all to make a certain impression, all to keep the power you wanted. So in a way you were doubling up on your evilness, and oh what a relief when you came out, came clean, and could drop that second evil state. Now you can concentrate on happily living your 'true self' - your true evilness.
And a lot of people do genuinely then believe they are free and true, but having no idea that this so called ‘true self’ is not true at all, not in the greater scheme of things, not in the truth of how you really are. So then one day when they wake up to this truth, then they have to work at doing their healing and bringing their real and true self out, the one that was prevented by your parents from coming out all those years ago. And that is a lot harder than just dropping your false facade allowing yourself to be happy in your evilness.
For example. Imagine you’re gay (or if you are gay...), you know it, but you can’t come out, you can’t tell and be true to it in the world because of how you think it will affect people in your family. You don’t want to hurt your mother, go against your parents, shame and embarrass them, make them angry with you, whatever it is. You don’t want to hurt them, so you have to keep it - the real you - secret from them. Or you are an actress, and you can’t come out because it will ruin your chances of getting further work. You have to pretend you are a certain way, to make a certain impression, put on a certain act, all so you can get what you want. But you’re a fraud, you know it, and live with it, wishing you could just be as you want to be in your life, free to do as you please, free to be yourself - what you feel is the true and real you.
And then one day, finally, for whatever reasons, you do come out, you tell the whole world, and dam it, you’re going to be as you are, and if you’re rejected by everyone, so be it, but you can’t keep dishonouring yourself. And oh the relief, you are finally able to live without having to keep a secret, without having a hidden agenda, keeping an alternative contrived other live going, all so you can be accepted in the world. Finally you are free to be your true self. And that’s great, but what really is this true self?
And what it is, is allowing yourself to be true to your evilness, the real and true you that you feel you are, but all STILL within a false, evil, love-denying, untrue state of mind. So really it’s only the first step of coming out. You are evil and forced yourself to live yet another false exterior, all to make a certain impression, all to keep the power you wanted. So in a way you were doubling up on your evilness, and oh what a relief when you came out, came clean, and could drop that second evil state. Now you can concentrate on happily living your 'true self' - your true evilness.
And a lot of people do genuinely then believe they are free and true, but having no idea that this so called ‘true self’ is not true at all, not in the greater scheme of things, not in the truth of how you really are. So then one day when they wake up to this truth, then they have to work at doing their healing and bringing their real and true self out, the one that was prevented by your parents from coming out all those years ago. And that is a lot harder than just dropping your false facade allowing yourself to be happy in your evilness.
Our healing difficulty - it's not how you might think it would be
To heal our negative self and feeling state we need to do the opposite of what one might think - what I thought anyway.
Instead of going about trying to get rid of all our bad parts, trying to fix ourselves using whatever means are available, we don't try to fix or solve any problems we have, all we do is always focus on JUST EXPRESSING ALL THE BAD FEELINGS WE FEEL ABOUT IT WHILST LONGING FOR THE TRUTH OF WHY WE'RE FEELING AS WE ARE.
The aim is to accept ourselves entirely, this being to 'self-love ourselves' by accepting EVERY part of us, not just the parts we like. Accepting ALL THE YUK PARTS TOO! So we start this procedure by wanting to accept all those bad feelings and emotions we're doing all in our power to avoid and not know about. As long as we live denying but one bad feeling, and even one good feeling, we're not fully self-accepting, so we're not fully self-loving, which means, we're not relating to ourselves unconditionally - with unconditional love. And as most of us happily accept any good feelings we don't so much have to focus on them, mostly on the bad ones. However you might even surprise yourself and find you are denying and stoping yourself from feeling good feelings as well. Many people try to use their minds to be all-accepting and so self-loving, we're told it's the right way to be. However as they do this, at the same time they are still deny many bad feelings they're not even aware they're feeling. The more power we give to our minds, the more we 'empower' ourselves, the more we can use our mind to control our feeling denial to an even greater extent. It's because of our bad feelings we feel powerless, so empowering ourselves is to get rid of those annoying feelings that just won't go away. All what most people believe they are doing to help themselves is actually only making things worse for them in the long run. They might enjoy a new found freedom and sense of power and strength of will through all their 'positive thinking' and 'self-improvement', yet all at the expense of more feelings they should be allowing themselves to feel. But who wants to feel all their bad feelings, and keep feeling them. We're all scared of opening Pandora's Box and being swamped into abject oblivion and complete dismal depression never to see the light of day again, but it's into that void of darkness we must go if we are to liberate all our pain and uncover the truth of why we have a Pandora's Box within us in the first place. We live conditionally, as seen by how we selectively accept and welcome some feelings yet not others.
So to become fully self-loving which is what naturally happens as you do your healing, we have to face all our bad feelings, welcome them, want them, and as they come up, fully express and emote them - 'be them'. And if you're like me, used to denying most of your bad feelings, to turn around and do the opposite is not only very hard to do, but also very trying.
As we accept all our bad feelings so too are we accepting all our Childhood Repression. And so too are we accepting our evilness - that indeed we are evil and living against ourselves, nature and God. And as we grow in this truth acceptance of ourselves, so in a way we are allowing ourselves to be the putrid, vile, monster, no-love person we are.
So it's a weird thing, in a way the more true we actually become to our evilness the less of it we are. So we have to be it completely, this being done in small doses so we can manage living it as we uncover the truth of it. And as we accept our yuk, so it leaves us, as we no longer need it. And this is the amazing part. We don't actually have to do anything to make our evilness go away other than keep on expressing and seeking the truth of our bad feelings. And as we do, mysteriously we change, our inner systems start to alter, as we relinquish our controlling beliefs and move toward perfection. First the perfection as in seeing and being fully our untrue selves, then into being our true selves.
So we sort of go into our evilness if you like, be become it all fully accepting it, all so we can then let it go as we realise that it was imposed on us and we no longer need or want to be as we are. And it goes. God sees to that for us.
The potential to completely heal all of our evilness is something entirely new. Strangely it's not been part of humanity's experience before. And I am sure it's the only way we can get ourselves out of the mess we're in.
Instead of going about trying to get rid of all our bad parts, trying to fix ourselves using whatever means are available, we don't try to fix or solve any problems we have, all we do is always focus on JUST EXPRESSING ALL THE BAD FEELINGS WE FEEL ABOUT IT WHILST LONGING FOR THE TRUTH OF WHY WE'RE FEELING AS WE ARE.
The aim is to accept ourselves entirely, this being to 'self-love ourselves' by accepting EVERY part of us, not just the parts we like. Accepting ALL THE YUK PARTS TOO! So we start this procedure by wanting to accept all those bad feelings and emotions we're doing all in our power to avoid and not know about. As long as we live denying but one bad feeling, and even one good feeling, we're not fully self-accepting, so we're not fully self-loving, which means, we're not relating to ourselves unconditionally - with unconditional love. And as most of us happily accept any good feelings we don't so much have to focus on them, mostly on the bad ones. However you might even surprise yourself and find you are denying and stoping yourself from feeling good feelings as well. Many people try to use their minds to be all-accepting and so self-loving, we're told it's the right way to be. However as they do this, at the same time they are still deny many bad feelings they're not even aware they're feeling. The more power we give to our minds, the more we 'empower' ourselves, the more we can use our mind to control our feeling denial to an even greater extent. It's because of our bad feelings we feel powerless, so empowering ourselves is to get rid of those annoying feelings that just won't go away. All what most people believe they are doing to help themselves is actually only making things worse for them in the long run. They might enjoy a new found freedom and sense of power and strength of will through all their 'positive thinking' and 'self-improvement', yet all at the expense of more feelings they should be allowing themselves to feel. But who wants to feel all their bad feelings, and keep feeling them. We're all scared of opening Pandora's Box and being swamped into abject oblivion and complete dismal depression never to see the light of day again, but it's into that void of darkness we must go if we are to liberate all our pain and uncover the truth of why we have a Pandora's Box within us in the first place. We live conditionally, as seen by how we selectively accept and welcome some feelings yet not others.
So to become fully self-loving which is what naturally happens as you do your healing, we have to face all our bad feelings, welcome them, want them, and as they come up, fully express and emote them - 'be them'. And if you're like me, used to denying most of your bad feelings, to turn around and do the opposite is not only very hard to do, but also very trying.
As we accept all our bad feelings so too are we accepting all our Childhood Repression. And so too are we accepting our evilness - that indeed we are evil and living against ourselves, nature and God. And as we grow in this truth acceptance of ourselves, so in a way we are allowing ourselves to be the putrid, vile, monster, no-love person we are.
So it's a weird thing, in a way the more true we actually become to our evilness the less of it we are. So we have to be it completely, this being done in small doses so we can manage living it as we uncover the truth of it. And as we accept our yuk, so it leaves us, as we no longer need it. And this is the amazing part. We don't actually have to do anything to make our evilness go away other than keep on expressing and seeking the truth of our bad feelings. And as we do, mysteriously we change, our inner systems start to alter, as we relinquish our controlling beliefs and move toward perfection. First the perfection as in seeing and being fully our untrue selves, then into being our true selves.
So we sort of go into our evilness if you like, be become it all fully accepting it, all so we can then let it go as we realise that it was imposed on us and we no longer need or want to be as we are. And it goes. God sees to that for us.
The potential to completely heal all of our evilness is something entirely new. Strangely it's not been part of humanity's experience before. And I am sure it's the only way we can get ourselves out of the mess we're in.
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